心寒。。。

不懂心寒的感觉是怎样，只知道我太弱了。。。以前，我以为自己是很坚强的，我错了，错得很离谱。。。
我其实就像是一朵温室里的小花，身边总有人定时为我灌溉，我以为人只要活得幸福就够了。。。
这种观念可以丢进垃圾桶了。。。
来到大学以后，很多事情都变了，我的人生观念也改了。。。 人与人之间的相处没有想象中简单，顾虑的太多，苦的是自己；顾虑的太少，却显得自己单纯。。。
短短的半年就发生事情了，还有另外的四年半能平淡地过吗？？
看来，大学时期真的会磨练人，让我这朵温室里的小花变成一根经得起风吹雨打的小草。。。

New Semester starts.....

Second Sem has already started.... However, during the first week, we did nothing... As this semester seems to be more relaxed as compared to previous one.... But, we are studying completely new subjects such as programming and thinking skill... Even this time the English is more like EST... Nothing about literature already...

New sem is started... But problem came too... Not my problem, of course.... But it was my friend one... As I am so close to her, I really cannot bear to see her suffer in her problem alone... I wish to help her... But I don't think that I can.... Hope she is going to think clearly and figure out things that she should do now....

Birthday in UTP.....

2nd September, the day when Japanese surrendered to the US army.... And it is also my birthday.... 2nd September 2009, my 18th birthday... Since secondary school, think this was the first time I celebrated without my Ji Mui.... However, I still had a nice birthday too....

Once the clock stroke 12, my roommate came to me and wished me Happy Birthday... At that moment, everything black off.... Then only I realized the electric current broke down.... And suddenly we saw some guys that stayed near my hostel played Mercun.... I wouldn't know how to describe them.... The next morning, there was a birthday card put outside my room....It was from wendy, pei pei n also my MAH..... So touch...
Then I went for my lectures..... After finished all the lectures, Tze Yi and Yee Ho gave me a present... I think they bought it from Minimart.... I wonder what should I buy for them next time.... The whole day I was receiving SMS non-stop... Thanks so much because of remembering my birthday.... N also friends in Facebook.... Thanks you
The conclusion is I am older and is 18 already....... Yeah.....

New experience in FAMINE 30....

Today, I joined the Famine 30 hours in UTP for the first time... Previously, I knew that this is a meaningful activity that helps those poor people all around the world. Undoubtedly, it is... I felt that it is more meaningful as I involved myself in it... We are not allowed to eat for 20 hours because I just joined the UTP one, but not the Bukit Jalil....
Throughout this activity, I realised that there are really many poor people in this world suffer from food crisis and poverty... They have to sacrifice things such as education to get a little food for themselves and the family... Not just that only, sometimes they have to sacrifice their childhood and work at young age... They have no opportunity to have education even though they wish for it desperately... Unlike us, besides of going to school, we go for extra tuition that need to be paid, we have nice stationary like Faber Castell, Disney... We can buy whatever things we want as long as our parents allow us to do so....Therefore, we really got to be gratitude and appreciate all the things that we have now... Besides that, please be willing to help others no matter you know them or not... Donate some money to them or contribute your energy in charity... As long as you contribute something, you are going to CHANGE the poor children's life...
About involvement in this activity, I would like to advise those who are really interested in helping the poors to join this activity... If not, please don't waste your time for it... Because some people kept complaining that the activity was boring and stupid... Come on, it was not the time to enjoy yourself, but the time to help the poors... But if you are sincere in helping them, I am sure you will get a new experience for it...Live the lives of the children.....Believe yourself, work together and make it happen...

Don't think too much...

Sometimes people think too much... When we think too much, we are going to be moody.. Then we will blame ourselves that things are going wrong because of ourselves... However, this is not true for all the times... Maybe people around us just go wrong in their own ways... Don't ever think too much and make yourself feel sad...
Sometimes, I think too much too... When I first arrived here, I miss my friends too much and can't really get along with new friends here... Because I think too much and never open my heart to accept them... If I continue to think too much, I think I already became crazy here...
Shift your mood or just change your mind set... You may feel things are getting right in their ways... Don't care abut others too much... The most important thing is you already played your own role... Let's shine up....

H1N1......

It seems like H1N1 is getting serious from day to day... Even my U also offs for 1 week because of it... However, at least the 1-week break gives me time to complete my work... The works that have not been completed in my mid-sem break...
Back to H1N1 topic, I don't really know about its viruses... But at least we can prevent it through our living styles... Be hygienic and take care of the daily diet... Eat more vitamin C... But don't eat more than 2 capsules if you take the extracted pills... Because it may cause food poisoning... Wash your hands properly before you eat... I know this seems easy to do, but believes me, some people never wash their hands before taking a meal... Take care of yourself nicely...
Say NO to H1N1....

I finished my tests.....

Today at 5.25 p.m. was a happy moment for me... Because I finished all the important tests finally... Actually I am going to have a English reading test but it is after the mid-sem break... Today's paper is pre-calculus... Quite ok la the questions.... Better than what I had imagined....
But unfortunately, some of them couldn't do it well... I got 1 friend... She cried so badly because she thinks that she was not doing well in the test.... I just tried to say something to calm her down... Actually things had past... Even you cry or scream in the public also, you cannot do the same test again... Everyone has only one chance to do most of the things, do appreciate the only chance if you know you are not going to have it again... Try all your best.... Then you will not have any regret... This is my philosophy in doing things... Especially during tests and exams...
Hope my philosophy can be used in you guys too......

Take care, friends....

I was just viewing Chor Ying's blog just now.... I could feel like She is really tired...And she mentioned something... We seemed to be lost contact with each other already... Perhaps all of us are just busy with our own life... Different courses... Different lifestyles... Honestly, it seems like we can't fulfill what we said before that... Keep contact... Yam cha together when we are back to Anson... I am not going to blame anyone of us because I totally understand how our new lives are going on...ASSIGNMENTS, TUTORIALS, PRESENTATION, LECTURES,GROUP DISCUSSION..... These are the things that we have to deal with for this stage...

Sometimes I wonder how you guys' life are going on... What you guys are busy with recently... Perhaps blogging is a good way to tell everyone about your life... Just for example, if I never read Chor Ying's blog this morning, I will never know that she was so busy with her life now... I thought she is always 'happy go lucky'.... At the same time, I wonder how is Siou Wei in her college life... And also Siew Yin.... Is she busy with her study now in UNITEN....And also Ying Hui...Does she start to love her hostel's washroom... And honestly, friends... I prefer blogging than MSN... That's why I seldom or maybe never log into MSN... But I do update my blog frequently....

Take care, friends..... Hectic lifestyle can make you guys fall sick easily... Take good care of yourself please... Because nowaday got severe case of sickness already.... Drink more water or herb tea when you feel heaty.... Take enough rest.... Take less fried food.... I know all these advices are familiar to you guys... But, these are the only advices that I can give.... Because I was not feeling well last night and yet today I got a Physics test... Don't worry, I feel better and energetic today....Take care.....

Chemistry Lab again..

Today morning, I had another chemistry lab session... Today one was quite hectic... Because the experiment like quite weird and involved a lot of calculations... But, the guy next to my table, Josh is so funny... Even he never make any joke but I still think he is funny... Especially his 'dut...dut..." sound... Just now I was too busy of the experiment until I forgot to ask him about it... I don't think my lab session will be boring with his presence... Because he is just funny.... I am having my chemistry test tomorrow... Wish me good luck....

The dinner...

The biggest pot among the stuff belongs to Wendy... We cooked egg rice today... Very delicious when eat together wif soy sauce and sesame oil...
Then the smaller pot besides it is my pot... I fry the cabbage using it... Nice man
The plate besides the sesame oil is carrot... Sorry.. No food adi.. It is all inside the stomach...
My useful cooking pot.....
These are the important ingredients... Sesame oil and soy sauce...
This is Pei Pei, today's dishwasher... Thank you la..
This is Wendy... Another chef besides of me....Thanks...


Today, I do nothing so far... After came back from IRC (Information Resource Center) at 2 something, I slept until 6.... Then, I just read my friend, Wendy's message," Eng, we cook at 6.15.." Oh.. No... Now already 6.13... I quickly went to washroom and then rushed to Wendy's room... We cooked the dinner and waited for another friend, Pei Pei to come back from swimming and had dinner together....
Pei Pei said tonight's dinner had the 'home' feeling... I think the same thing too... We share all the work... And finally enjoy the dinner together...

WE ARE THE FAMILY........

Finally....

Finally, all of us go into our new journey already... The girls that were used to ' fa mou' at home finally went study already... Then this means we have less time to get together with each other... However, this is one of the things that we have to face when we are getting older...
Today, I went pasar malam again... I think going to pasar malam on every wednesday has been my routine in UTP life... So far, I never see much seniors here... Everytime when I am walking to the lecture halls, I will ask my friends, 'How our campus will be when all the seniors are back?' I really wonder how it will be.... I scared the cafetaria in our V2C will be so crowded.... Actually I don't like eating in crowded place... I prefer to enjoy my meals nicely... That's why all the time I like to cook my own dinner and eat in my room.... I wonder if I can create more recipes with simple ingredients in my foundation year... Because limited space, limited cooking utensils, limited ingredients as I don't have a fridge.... If next year I am moving to the Petronas apartment, guess what... I am going to make the kitchen in it as a place to create recipes... I had promised my friends... I am going to cook for them... Spagethi, chinese dishes but halal, ha...ha.....

I got a STUDY group adi........

Yesterday afternoon, just had a study group with my friends and also a few guys from chemical engineering department... I planned to have it and the guys agreed with it... So we form a group of 10..... They are really funny, man.. Before we started to study, we had a ice-breaking session... We talked so loud and laughed like 'ki siao'... In IRC.... People just staring at us and looked 'tak syok'... But we really had a nice time studying together... We talked about laptops, scholarship,bonds and many more... And I met another 'wira' here... Then I just shouted out, 'WIRA!!!'.. My frenz just laughed at me because she thought I am over-reacting... Actually, I am going to explain this... I am really fascinating meeting NS people here..... Cum on.. I am the NS ALUMNI's member, man....

Yesterday, I phoned 'da hui'.... Actually when I brushed my teeth last night, I realised that I haven't use this name to call ying hui for years already... Later when I have a gathering with her, I wanna use it again... I am sure she is going to 'kill' me... Because she hates it... but I LIKE IT....Ha.. ha..

UTPian's Pasar Malam...

Last evening, I went to pasar malam... This was the first time I went.... Unfortunately, it rained heavily.... Then, my friends and I had to pasar malaming in RAIN.... Then, we met a foreigner....I am not sure he comes from which country.. But I think he is an Australian... Then, my friend kept saying that He is very handsome... Green eyes, sharp nose, fair skin and fit figure... Ijust stayed cool as usual... But, he is really CUN... His eyes are charming...One of my friends said he just looks like the hero in 'Twilight'..
Then, we bought the kebab ayam and murtabak..And bought a cabbage then boiled it ourselves... And I taught them to eat together with the tuna... They said nice, man... This is the secret recipe from our 'NU REN ZU'...Last night, we really had a nice dinner, eat happily and talked about our dreams...
Tomorrow, I am going to have a sumptuous dinner too... But, it is kind of farewell party... The two girl that already 'fa mou'at home finally want to go KL and study... Wish you guys all the best... And I have a good news to be announced...

' I have a laptop already... Although it is not a big deal, I still happy of it because this is the very first laptop in my lifetime.. Guess what, I was happy until I couldn't sleep last night... See, I get satisfied easily... Thanks, papa... Because bought me a laptop... And my broter also... Search so many information for me...'WA HA...HA...

I went 4 chemistry LAB 2day...

Today is my first experience in my chemistry lab... Just met my lab partner today... She is okay, but I just feel like both of us lack of communication... Perhaps both of us need time to improve it... Come on... What can I expect from this??? We just met today and just know each other... I can't expect that we have the same opinion in all kinds of thing... Perhaps I am asking for too much...
But however, I had a nice time in lab today... Just knew a guy who I think is cute and funny... He just couldn't pronounce my name correctly... He kept called me as ' Shane' (some sound like that)... And I accepted it... As long as I understand... Coz I know some people just find my name is hard to be pronounced...
This weekend I am going back to Teluk Intan... It is for the anugerah kecemerlangan in my previous school.... Ya, previous school... Now I am going back to Azizian as a UTPian... What kind of feeling I am going to have?? Actually, I miss my school.... Miss the time when I gila-gila with my 'ji mui'... Miss the time we lepak around the school just to accompany one or two of them to toilet.... Miss the time went inside the teacher's office.... N found out they were malasing inside it... Actually, I am curious that what kind of feeling I am going to have...
At this time, I am in my coursemate's room and argueing about the Korean actors... That's all for this post... I am going to submit my lab report... haiz... Have to walk under the sun... Guess what...I am becoming darker and darker... I am no longer the strawberry girl in you guys' eyes....Emmm.... So sad....

Am I working hard now???

Just finished my two lectures this morning.. N coming into IRC for blogging... I kept asking myself in these few days.. Am I working hard now???I don't know even though my other coursemates kept saying that I AM....
Actually I don't feel myself is in the right mood to study for these few weeks... Is it because of I have not adapt myself yet in this new campus life or I feel weird because I am studying with different people now??? Actually I miss you all a lot... Now, everything is getting different.. We can't make noise in class... Doing all the 'siao bo' stuff... And create some jokes among few of us... All these things are just in our memories now...
In the previou post, I just wish that all of us can do our best in our campus lives... This is really what I hope.. Because this is also what I hope for myself too... Guys, work hard together... Perhaps I have to work harder because I am a scholar.. I have to keep my academic result on top for everytime...
Honestly, being a scholar gains some admiration or perhaps respect from others... But there is still some stress that have to face by herself... And I am the one... However, I choose to be it.. Aren't I??? I have no choice.. The only thing that I can do is work harder... Friends, don't worry about me that I am going to 'ki siao'... I am not going to... This is just a way to express my real feeling... 'NU REN ZU' de president always know what is the best for herself... She is tough,man...Do remember the president... THANK YOU.....

Going back to UTP..........

Last Friday, I was back from campus just for my weekend holiday... Tomorrow afternoon, I am going back.. And on Monday, I am going to start my real life as an UTPian... So far, I still okay with everything around me... I do hope that this kind of feeling is within myself for the next five years...
It is not easy to become an UTPian, and the facees kept telling us that we must study very hard to get good grades... Of course I know this is the most important element in the campus life... Therefore, I have a bit stress about this.. But just don't worry because I am flexible, I know how to convert this kind of stress to another form of motivation... (sounds like chemical processes)
Friends, I know that life in campus may be a bit different from what we had gone through.... But, be tough.. Strive for excellence... It is all for our futures.....

Hai, frenz...

Hai,frenz..I lost my previous password... N my previous e-mail account got problem... So, nw i m a gmail user and login to www.engsheiyin.blogspot.com to view my blog...
I was also started my campus life for almost 2 weeks... Sometimes, I did felt tired because had to walk for a long distance to move from one place to another... Perhaps, this is also one part of the campus life...
I haven't see you all for a long time already... Especially siou wei and chor ying... Miss u guys so much... But I have to understand that this is what we are going to face for the next 10 or maybe 20 to50 years...
Guys, strive for your excellence...