原来是这样的。。。

之前，我以为我付出太多了，所以我生气、厌恶都是应该的。。。
结果，今晚过后，
我才知道我错了。。。
曾几何时，我以为因为我有付出，
所以我是对的，我是应该得到我应得的。。。
结果，事情不会是这样的，
因为整个社会的生存论都不是这样的。。。
不是付出就一定有回报，
回报是要自己找来的。。。
而且它或许是在不同的层次让你自己发掘。。。
我错了，我真的错了，
我以为我是对的，
原来事情永远都不是那么风光。。。
风光的背后真的要付出很多、很多
永远不要期待别人给你回报，
请自己把它找出来，
除了你自己，
没有人会真正帮到你的。。。
今晚过后，
我终于明白了，
事情原来是这样的。。。

2nd week of UG....

Today is the forth day for my second week in UG... I started to cope with this hectic life, but today is really tiring... Because of the add & drop period is going to end soon. And I was kicked out by my moral lecturer due to the system mistake... See, we had already became the "SLAVERY" of the system.... Suit the definition I gave... Cannot control every aspect of your personal life...
This is life, I guess... It does not mean that you can have everything you want or you wish all the time... There are obstacles for you there...As you grow older, your view of problems gets broader and you would realize that obstacle is actually a way to become wiser... It might be irritating as you are so busy to settle all this... But for sure, you will gain something from it... It is time to learn from problems and become stronger than before...

2010年。。。

今天已经是2010年的第三天了。。。下午时和VIVIAN闲聊了片刻，觉得是时候当个成人了，不可以再用小孩子的眼光来分析事情，再霸道地执着于自己的歪理，更不可以因为面子的问题而狡辩。。。我要重新出发。。。
可是，真正重新出发的时候应该是一月二十五号时，因为那时新的学期了。。。那个学期会比这个学期来得更忙碌。。。也是在FOUNDATION LEVEL 的最后一个学期了。。。 过后，我就是名副其实的大学生了，再过后就要踏入社会工作了。。。
时间好像过得很快，好像才刚刚拿了SPM的成绩，却没想到已经在UTP读了半年。。。是我在蹉跎岁月，或是岁月真的不饶人？？
我重新出发了，出发到一个我更向往的世界。。。

心寒。。。

不懂心寒的感觉是怎样，只知道我太弱了。。。以前，我以为自己是很坚强的，我错了，错得很离谱。。。
我其实就像是一朵温室里的小花，身边总有人定时为我灌溉，我以为人只要活得幸福就够了。。。
这种观念可以丢进垃圾桶了。。。
来到大学以后，很多事情都变了，我的人生观念也改了。。。 人与人之间的相处没有想象中简单，顾虑的太多，苦的是自己；顾虑的太少，却显得自己单纯。。。
短短的半年就发生事情了，还有另外的四年半能平淡地过吗？？
看来，大学时期真的会磨练人，让我这朵温室里的小花变成一根经得起风吹雨打的小草。。。

Don't think too much...

Sometimes people think too much... When we think too much, we are going to be moody.. Then we will blame ourselves that things are going wrong because of ourselves... However, this is not true for all the times... Maybe people around us just go wrong in their own ways... Don't ever think too much and make yourself feel sad...
Sometimes, I think too much too... When I first arrived here, I miss my friends too much and can't really get along with new friends here... Because I think too much and never open my heart to accept them... If I continue to think too much, I think I already became crazy here...
Shift your mood or just change your mind set... You may feel things are getting right in their ways... Don't care abut others too much... The most important thing is you already played your own role... Let's shine up....